Really, you say that’s me in the mirror? Oh…

Why is it that sometimes I don’t feel fat? I’m not talking about feeling my belly jiggle or thighs touching fat, but in my mind—why is it that I don’t feel fat? I caught a glimpse of myself in a full length mirror today and I was a bit taken back by what I saw. I know what the scale says; I know what my pant size says, but wow. I know there a people out there that think I’m just too lazy to exercise—there might be some truth to that—or that I’m too lazy to eat healthier, again maybe some truth, but it’s not like I just sit on my arse all day eating bon-bons while watching re-run after re-run on the television. I work outside the home; I am a full-time college student; I am a mommy to two young children; I am a wife that does about 90% of the household cleaning and cooking. And honestly at the end of the day, the last thing on my mind is exercising, well, it’s on my mind, but actually getting motivated to complete it is a different story. No, I don’t like feeling the way I do, but I am in a rut. I want out but am too tired—physically, emotionally and mentally—to do anything about it. I want to change that. I want out of this vicious little circle that I am in. I know it’s not healthy. I know a lot of things, but to actually change it takes time and a lot of work. Sometimes I feel as if I don’t have the time to dedicate to weight loss nor do I feel like I want to make the time. It’s a catch-22.
I suck. I truly and honestly suck.

Another 2lbs down

Well I am down another 2lbs which makes 7.5lbs total lost. YAY! I had my DH take my measurements again, and they have, of course, gone down as well. Double YAY!

little by little

I've lost 5.4lbs since the 1st of May. Nothing huge to note, but still enough to keep me motivated. Aslo during the month of May, I walked/jogged 18.33 miles. My goal for the month of June is 100 miles. I think I can do it, in fact, I know I can do it. I've joined a website called The Daily Plate. I love it! It allows me enter in everything I've eaten for the day; it keeps track of certain foods that I regularly eat; it allows me to enter in and choose from a variety of exercises; most of all, it keeps track of all the calories I've eaten and lets me know how close I am to going over my daily calories.

Long time

and no weight loss! Really, I haven't lost a single pound. Yes, bad mama! I finally have decided it's time to actually do something about it. I'm hoping that I can stay focused and motivated. I'm so darn tired all the time from working full-time, going to school full-time and being a full-time mama. I really want to lose about 40lbs by August. I'm tired of being a fat mama.